So I’ve gained a bit of weight since starting Lexapro in February (in addition to the weight I gained from Zoloft prior). I don’t actually know HOW much I weigh, but I’ve gained 3 cup sizes and it’s strange. The shirts I got in March weren’t fitting anymore and I got fitted at Victoria’s Secret two weeks ago because I started to need some kind of support instead of just letting my boobs be free, and I’ve gone from a B to 34DD and……I don’t know. I’m not used to having cleavage all the time, and my boobs flop weirdly and are heavy and good boob days aside, it’s mostly unpleasant.
My body is changing and I don’t know how to deal with it. My rings don’t fit anymore, My shirts are two sizes up than they have been for the last 4-5 years, my jeans I got right before we moved are starting to get tight, and I……don’t know.
I’m trying to be okay with it. To be okay with my body changing and growing and just letting it be. Eating healthy and all that but trying not to judge myself.
It’s just…….my body has been growing so much that it can’t really keep up and it’s actually kind of painful. My back is confused about my boobs and my muscles are confused about what needs to hold things and I’m just hoping it balances out sometime soon.
I feel like it’s hard to talk about because now I have the ever desired boob size, but my frame isn’t used to this and all my muscles are weirding out and it’s just…kinda sucky right now and I don’t know how to cope with it.
But, I did get some bras, and some large shirts from Old Navy that actually fit over my new torso and don’t pressure my boobs uncomfortably, and are cute as a button, so that helps a little.