Category Something Real

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I re-learned how to crochet a granny-square flower a few days ago, and made a video for my mom and thought I’d share it. I had issues editing/exporting/finding it so, the embed is just the raw footage…

You can also click the link and go to my vimeo channel, I made a one minute ending there too (called Finish) – showing the completed project.


choosetell_fairytalesOften times I find myself feeling like a little kid overwhelmed in a great big world – I don’t think my height helps. I realized lately that more often than not I’ve been living in fear. It’s paralyzing, it’s cowardly, and it’s no fun to live in. I’ve had it with living in fear of what people will think of my thoughts, opinions, and decisions.
Oddly enough, I’ve been living the way I absolutely hate, caged up and ineffective because I’m too scared to be seen as who I really am, to be unaccepted. This isn’t anything new either, I’ve had to cross this bridge time and time again for different reasons and different decisions – yet this time, it’s all me. I’ve been to scared to simply stand up for myself and do anything really – I put on this front that really isn’t me…it’s just the scared appeasing version of myself. I’m a people pleaser, but there are people I just can’t please and it’s time for me to get over it and move on. Again.
I’m very blessed that I have a husband who is there to listen, love, accept, understand and help me in this process…actually, he’s the one who made me realize that I could change it. I love him for that – he’s always been that way, he takes my problems and shows me that I can actually fix them.  As far as I’m concerned – as long as I can please God and my husband, I’m good – and I know that I can do that.
(I love you Alex!)


Every year I wear the same costume – a colonial dress my grandma and I made from a Felicity pattern about 4 years ago. I love the squared neckline and the lace accents and the blue flowered material, I almost feel like I’ve stepped back in time (except not really, because the people in Star Trek costumes bring me back to reality) I stand taller and feel more graceful and feminine.
I realized the other day, that it’s not the dress that sends my posture into a more correct position, nor does it make me more graceful, I simply feel that way and carry myself likewise. So, I’ve decided to experiment – I’m going to try and carry myself with more grace and poise (and hopefully work on my posture) this month and see how it goes. Initially I thought about wearing more skirts, since they seem to help, but in this climate, I would freeze before being graceful. In lieu of that, I’m doing more stretches (just basic ones, most of them I learned from ballet) and trying to sit up straighter when I’m crocheting or working on my laptop.
I gave up training myself to become more poised and graceful a few years ago, and I regret it. At the end of this month, I’d like to stand tall at 4’11 and I’d like to be able to walk and carry myself in a way that exudes both femininity and confidence (without having to dress like a colonial).
Who knows, maybe I’ll take up dancing again.

Election Day

Tomorrow, for the first time, I’ll actually get to vote. I can honestly say I’ve been waiting for this moment for years and I’m more than a little bit psyched about it. I spent most of high school campaigning and encouraging everyone around me to go out on election day, and finally I can join them. I will probably wear my “I voted” sticker with much pride tomorrow…and I’ll try not go parading around town with it. Oddly enough, I think election day ties with my birthday in terms of anticipation. Tomorrow I vote, tomorrow I have a voice…and a check box, and tomorrow, I plan to use it.




Then, I get to watch the returns. 😀 😀 😀 😀




Small Adventures

Everyone has small problems and adventures, it’s just sort of a fact of life. However, small problems like…the internet being out for the day when your job completely relies on it, make internet outages much more challenging. This month, really has been full of random small adventures – car breakage, SAT’s, flies, realizing we have to register the car, and the whole internet out today thing.
So today, after realizing that the internet was out, we tried to reset it…for 45 minutes. After no success, we called Comcast and  apparently our entire town was out, at least in residential areas. We then realized, that we could register our car before the end of the month, and it was much cheaper than we thought it was going to be(score!). After we got that out of the way, we checked to see if internet came back…and it hadn’t. So thankfully, we live in a town that has several free (or cheap) wifi hotspots. Fortunately, we hadn’t cancelled our AT&T wifi subscription at Starbucks so Alex was able to work there until we decided to hang out at the library with everyone else who had no internet.  (library pic below – we have an awesome library.)
So anyway, tip for anyone who depends on internet like we do: make sure you move somewhere with free (or cheap) wifi available incase yours goes out randomly…for 7 hours….


I woke up this morning with plans to go to the bank and send out my cable bill…..and then  I realized that it’s Columbus day.  I don’t remember ever taking off Columbus day when I was in school, so it’s always come as a surprise – usually when we discovered there wasn’t any mail and spent about 5 minutes realizing, oh, it’s a holiday. Usually it’s  fine, but tomorrow it’s supposed to snow, which makes going out very inconvenient as I haven’t driven in the snow before.  If I do end up going out, it will definitely be an adventure.
It’s supposed to snow tomorrow. I grew up in the south, October is 80’s weather for me. So this is sort of a weird concept for me. Snow in October.
Where’s global warming when you need it? Chilling out?