Category: Evolution
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let downs
Sometimes it feels like the universe just really wants me to not get in to any of the communities that would help me grow faster and it’s really frustrating. I instantly hear the words of my parents when they ripped away my only social outlet and community as a teenager (competitive speech and debate) “you’re…
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tangent
I didn’t do any WordPress videos on Tuesday, because a work project came up which meant I got to play with MySQL databases and mess around on the server side, so learning was still a thing. Had this huge problem that was created by my browser deciding to insert my email address in the whitelist…
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untitled
When you have a lot of silent thoughts but not the words to say them. So you decide to just start somewhere in hopes of matching words to the feeling on the tip of your tongue. Having my week split into days to focus on things worked pretty well. It works for me because…
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Thing I'm Gonna Try
So the last three weeks have been getting ready for my spouse to leave and then dealing with my spouse being gone, and that was very hard. I don’t like sleeping alone. Anyway. picked up spouse from the airport yesterday and suddenly ALL my energy and focus came rushing back. I realized that I am…
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Bi Visibility Day
I’m starting to get back into my groove and draw again, but because it’s Bi Visibility Day I thought I’d post a couple links of things I’ve written on the subject while I go back to drawing queer characters adventuring around the Fae Realm. Seattle Pride (in Pictures) Flying in the Face of Everything –…
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Painful Explanations
There’s a not so small part of me lately that just really needs people to understand how much breaks when your parents abuse you. And not just when they abuse you as your parents, but later, when they decide to cut you off because you’re not living how they want you to live as an…
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Sizes
So I’ve gained a bit of weight since starting Lexapro in February (in addition to the weight I gained from Zoloft prior). I don’t actually know HOW much I weigh, but I’ve gained 3 cup sizes and it’s strange. The shirts I got in March weren’t fitting anymore and I got fitted at Victoria’s Secret…
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Truths
Kiery. You do a lot of things. Here is a small list: CRHE Tech Director E.R.A., Bitch Goddess, and Fairy comics Painting Drawing Gaming Livestreams & Vlogs Programming Writing Generally helping people with the internet. You are good at art, writing, and even writing stories. You’re good at learning and programming, and actually making things.…
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Subconscious self
I can feel the wheels of my subconscious working instensly. Sleep is fraught with anxiety, past selves, and doubts. There’s something bothering me on a level I can’t acknowledge or communicate. I feel like a failure as I wait, unknowing but feeling intensity. I try to distract, but everything feels pointless. There is stress and…
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Midday Muse
Sometimes I learn slower than I’d like. I get frustrated because PHP isn’t intuitive and I can watch a segment and then I have to take a break and let what I learned sit there for a couple days before going back for more. On the upside, I am actually grasping it this time, but…