Year: 2016

  • feels

    I cringe when I open my email I’m dreading tomorrow I spent today putting out fires that all happened at once – insurance expired, I needed to re-order court documents, and set up a consult with a lawyer for the roommate situation. I looked at affordable housing orgs and realized I’m tech support for at […]

  • burnt out on week 4

    “It is important for me to take care of my mental, emotional and physical health at work” This was the takeaway from therapy last week. I don’t know that I’ve done particularly well with it so far. I learned one of my coworkers supports Trump and I would be lying if I said that didn’t […]

  • Depression and Therapy and Burning Man (maybe)

    It’s been a long month of more new scary things. Started a job being a glorified receptionist with the bonus skill set of being able to translate people’s computer problems into useful information for the IT people (and no, I don’t get paid more for that skill). Had housing fall through on me twice, the […]

  • Rising From The Ashes

    My life lately has been incredibly roller-coaster like, not necessarily in the fun way, but always in the make-you-stronger-or-die way. I guess that’s also not so much lately as a recurring theme, but that’s besides the point. While I was waiting for divorce paperwork to go through (still am. SOON), going through an additional breakup, […]

  • I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Said Hello to Courtship, Met a Boy, and Got Married

    My parents said they wanted to talk to me one day. I was like 8 or 10 or something innocuous and the thought of boys and kissing was still gross (ew, spit). They said that they decided I wouldn’t be allowed to date, that I would court instead. I said okay, having no idea what […]

  • blurb

    I keep writing and erasing. I want to write but I don’t know what to say.   I know what I want to do with my life and it’s the thing I’ve been doing for the last 3 years. Art. Lots of Art. CRHE. Programming. School.   I want to be able to live off […]

  • I was meant to be an arrow

    We would scoff at the idea that people wanted to have well-rounded educated children. I was meant to be an arrow to pierce the darkness and pop all the well-rounded bubbles. << actually a thing that was said. I watched the news nightly from the time I was 8, I listened to Rush Limbaugh and […]

  • Random update 2k16

    This is going to be all disjointed and rambly. I’m feelsy and tired. Things are good and scary and new. I can take ABE courses again this fall, which is helping my brain in a lot of ways. I feel like I sort of have some semblance of a direction now, instead of a confused […]

  • A Reinvention of Myself

    This space over the last 7 years has documented my journey from newly married, just-out quiverfull daughter, to outspokenly queer, artistic, techy, advocate for making homeschooling better for homeschooled students. This blog is where I came out as agnostic, bi, & nonbinary; this is where I posted the process of learning who I am and […]

  • College Week 4 Day 1

    I should be actually doing homework, but I can’t focus and I’m waiting for coffee to kick in while contemplating finding out if I have ADD/ADHD because reasons. I turned in my first paper today and omg feels. I’ve never turned in a paper where the grade actually mattered in a real way, so this […]