feels

I cringe when I open my email
I’m dreading tomorrow
I spent today putting out fires that all happened at once – insurance expired, I needed to re-order court documents, and set up a consult with a lawyer for the roommate situation.
I looked at affordable housing orgs and realized I’m tech support for at least one of them, and had awkward and hard feelings about that, and not being paid enough to be able to find housing without assistance through one of my company’s clients. It’s a weird feel.
I’m so very very tired.
 
I feel like a failure for not being able to make it on my own. fighting internalized stigma about getting help. Everything is hard.