Monthly Archives: August 2012

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Ghost Cat


Give Away Details from Clone Kiery:
The owner at my local game store, Dirigo Hobbies is awesome and wanted to give away this vintage collection of YuGiOh trading cards because you guys are awesome and he’s pretty epic. So, to *win* the awesomeness…
Like, subscribe (if you haven’t already), like KieryGeek and Dirigo Hobbies on facebook, and leave a comment on the video!
Winner will be drawn randomly and announced on September 28th. Yay for season two!
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Starting Out Of Order

Sometimes I feel strange because all of the major life events happened to me before the normal life stuff. I graduated at 15, which I thought was cool at the time. I find myself now, questioning whether or not I was actually ready then. A lot of the outside-of-school skills most people learn in high school, I didn’t learn until after I was married. I don’t feel like I earned graduating that early, which might have something to do with finding out I graduated after getting home from a trip and expecting I had to catch up on math before that was even an option. It was welcome and as far as transcripts are concerned, I graduated with over 30 credits, but deep down inside, I don’t trust it. I don’t trust the education I gave myself because I feel so ill-equipped in real life, with people, and jobs, and not homemaking.
If I grew into the adult I was raised to be, I’d probably be pregnant or have a child by now, I’d be cooking meals and taking care of spawn or becoming a planet and looking at homeschool curricula. I would feel perfectly capable, maybe.
But I’m not that person.
I’m a geek who doesn’t get math jokes unless they involve pie – I don’t know what the Mandelbrot set is, but I like the song. I didn’t have an actual or good job experience until after I was married, when I was 18 (the one job I had in high school lasted a month, but it had nothing to do with me).
I’ve slowly been realizing that all the bad things I was told happen to marriages where women have jobs that involve being outside the 4 walls of their home haven’t happened, and are mostly lies.
At 21, sometimes it feels weird to have crossed all the major check points and still feel woefully inadequate, inexperienced, and ill-equipped.  But maybe everyone feels that way if they’re doing the things they like doing?
Everything I’ve done, I’ve been learning as I go – and I have no formal training or anything, I read a lot of blogs from people who’ve been there, I research things I’m unsure or curious about, and I spend a lot of time doing. Which explains a lot of my failed attempts at successful etsy business-ing, but also my successes as data entry specialist and now web administrator for local non profits (child of the internet, ftw).
When I remind myself how far I’ve come and the things I do, I can sometimes remember to be confident. But the struggles I face in my brain just doing simple things and relating – I second guess myself too much, I over think and spend hours inside my head replaying events and hoping I didn’t sound stupid or boring or anything, sometimes I’m almost frozen with insecurities and I never used to be.
But I love the things I do, and I love the opportunities and the friends and experiences and everything that’s so new and exciting that’s happened over just the last 5 months. I love that I get to work with non profits doing things I’ve been acquiring skills for (unwittingly) since high school, I love I get to make videos and that people like to see them, I love that I get to play new games and try new things every Thursday, and I love that I’m actually part of a community.
So maybe it’s normal, when you’re flooded with things that you like doing and opportunities to make money and get help and feedback from people while doing them, to feel insecure. Maybe it’s normal to feel ill-equipped because things are moving faster than you imagined. Maybe it’s normal to be a little scared and dizzy. Maybe that’s all okay.

KieryGeek Preproduction Note 5: In-between Episodes

I wasn’t sure how the new set up was really going to work until I tried it. As weird as it is not filming and releasing an episode every week (today would have been dedicated to writing and brainstorming) I’ve found that I’ve actually been able to come up with more creative ideas, and more opportunities for new content are presenting themselves. I’m using the creative energy because I know I have time to figure it out instead of burning it because I need to get things done.

In an upcoming episode – not sure if it’ll be the next one or not yet, I’ll have a snippet debuting my (lack of) musical skills. We spent some of Saturday filming it and putting it together and generally having a blast. This evening I edited the warmachine footage we took of a late night game a few weeks ago (note: I’m not generally that irritated while/after playing, it was just late and I hadn’t slept).

I’m really really excited about doing the next episode, and I really like having enough time to be creative with it, and I think that’s going to work out well. I hope it does, anyway.

My Portfolio!

I’ve been needing (and meaning) to make a portfolio site to show off my work – both creatively and industrially for a while now. I’ve had a barely-used subdomain for uploading art to for a while that served as a gallery, kinda. I use flickr, so the wordpress-installed-sub was almost never used.
Last night, I realized that I could actually use that for my portfolio and I wouldn’t have to go through the whole process of setting everything up again. The domain was already a little perfect (artist.kieryking.com) or at the very least, useable. Thus began hours of theming and tweaking and uploading and screenshot-taking and copywriting for my portfolio that didn’t come to an end until about 20 minutes ago.
I’m pleased because it works on so many levels – I offer services as a wordpress-website-setter-upper (okay, I call myself a website administrator, because I do a bit more than designing, but a smidgen less than developing – as I use frameworks that already exist. Basically, I just don’t know what to call myself that better suits what I do.) So it only made sense to use a wordpress install and a theme I spent hours perfecting and editing code to showcase my skill, my experience, my projects, and my art (shops).

Portfolio

For future ease, I’ve added the link to my portfolio in the navigation – so if you’d like to see what I do as far as web administration, art, film, and my book, it’s all there, with links!
 

KieryGeek Preproduction Note 4: I'm Done with Preproduction!

Well, at least the part that involves all the season set up. I’ll have ongoing preproduction forever, and I still need to memorize my script and take some gaming footage, but earlier this week I sent out the emails I needed to send out – which was the last thing on my list of things to line up before filming!
I feel much more relaxed with all of that out of the way. I was really annoyed at myself in July because life happened and I didn’t get to where I wanted in the time frame I dreamed up, that was unfortunately unrealistic. With work starting back up next month, I think the new more flexible timeframe is going to be better for everyone, and with amazing awesome guests every other week, I don’t expect there to be much complaining.
My biggest question right now is: with the youtube channel, and the cafepress store launched, should I make a separate facebook page for KieryGeek, or should I continue to keep all the general updates under Kiery’s Fake Empire?
 

A Different Kind Of Canvas

before/current mirror
The feathers in the left (before) image are mine, I’ll probably add them back in, and the trim on the right is *actually* silver, the fog is more foggy, but yeah, image quality. 😛 I’m trying to go for the just-out-of-the-shower-and-drew-on-the-mirror-look – so I applied some heavily watered down white paint, and went over it with a paper towel, and then drew on it with my fingers to create authentic finger writing.