It’s not just depressing because your ear feels weird, it’s frustrating because you can’t hear what other people are saying when they talk, you can’t judge how loud you’re speaking (since you sound loud in your head), and machine noises (fans, air conditioning, or constant humming noises) get really irritating really fast – not to mention the ringing and the feeling-like-water-or-something-swishing-around inside.
Sometimes I feel so…overwhelmed (I tried going outside and talking to people against traffic and people in restaurants, I about lost it) it makes me want to just curl up into a ball and cry and hope that makes it all melt away. Unfortunately, I can’t cry on demand, or when I want to.
I’ve tried everything except ear-candling (which, according to my research isn’t really -medically- recommended and not something I trust myself to do) and very little relief has actually come from it. So tomorrow I’m going to the doctor’s, so hopefully they can take whatever is in there out (it’s not an earache, there’s just something..stuck…).