me + food = meh

I realized earlier today, that I think the reason I enjoy food significantly less than everyone else is because I have no real emotional connection to it. I eat food because I have to as my body dislikes starvation. While I appreciate good food, and I have a handful of foods that I will be very happy if you serve me (dark chocolate, pizza, and mac & cheese) I don’t enjoy it like everyone else I know seems to. I wonder if it’s because food and I are less emotionally connected and if that’s part of the reason I only eat when I’m hungry and (generally) don’t eat more than I need to. I don’t eat for non-hunger reasons (like boredom or sadness or happiness) with the exception of being held captive by hormones that send me into a depressed and munchie ravage.
So today, I did something that I really don’t enjoy.
recipe quest
Finding recipes. I dread it and try to avoid it as much as possible usually, but something else hit me today.
I’m doing this because I think I’m worth it, and no one else can do this for me.
I want to eat healthier and cook healthier not because I’m a good wife, or I enjoy the process of making a good meal for my husband, because honestly, I don’t. I hate¬†loathe¬†the process and I have no satisfaction in cooking at all (thankfully my good-wifey-ness isn’t subject to my kitchen performances); but I finally think that I’m worth the effort, as much as I might hate the process.
So jumping into the annoying finding-recipes-and-making-lists quest I was able to write down some interesting bits of information I found from the encyclopedia, and hit with a little bit of genius, I came up with something to potentially solve the ever frustrating problem of not knowing what to do with leftover produce (you know, before it turns into goo).
Produce & Uses Chart
I’m coming to the scary realization that taking this healthy eating thing on for myself means I need to actually put effort into finding food and using it and maybe even doing more cooking (sad). So if I can streamline some of that process to limit the amount of “I don’t know what to do with it” coma’s that I inevitably fall into, that might help me feel better about getting foods that expire in a week.
In the meantime, I’ll keep reminding myself that me and my health are worth the uh, torture of potential meal planning…and I’ll keep switching between Spongebob and MSNBC while I’m at it, because that seems to help.

When the internet is boring

It’s time to do something else. I should do that more often really. Last night I got bored, and after staring blankly at my screen hoping for something interesting, I went into my [newly re-arranged, and significantly warmer – who knew keeping the bed off the baseboards would allow the heat to flow?] bedroom and drew some ideas to color my white space.

brainstorming ideas
Brainstorm

Now that I have…10 possibilites I can decide which one I’d like to paint and hang over our bed.
arrangement
Arrangement

The bed and the painting will end up being the focal point – the inspiration picture and the curtains on the window and over the closet will help tie everything together. And I’m going to refinish the nightstand that I temporarily put a scarf over. O:)
Anyway, after brainstorming I decided to finally just read. I started this book, Spellwright, a few months ago and got really busy and stopped reading it. Mostly because I can’t put books down very easily, so I stuck to reading comics while I was working so I wouldn’t stay up all night reading. I loved reading the comics too, but I’ve really really wanted to get back to Spellwright and just never got around to it…until last night. It was wonderful, and now I’m halfway through and can’t wait to get back into it.

Brainstorming Day

Today I brainstormed. I sat, thought, ruminated, and drew until I got cold and just needed to do something. I thought about a new cover for my book, tried a new technique drawing faces trying to re-imagine characters, and attempted to figure out a new design for the art in my living room. I’m not sure how far I actually got, but it was good to think about. I’ve been feeling sort of stuck, so I think that helped, and then I worked on my art journal to get a little bit of something out and that was really good.
I’ll probably be doing a bit more of that this week, hopefully ideas will start to flow a bit more freely – and I’m hoping to journal on a closer to daily basis to aid that…