but instead, I’m writing, because I need to and I can’t find food until my brain spills it’s thoughts. Weirdness. I got to part three of The Nerdist Way and I need to talk now. The last few days I’ve been in a funk, not weird for me I guess, but I had several really…
I’ve wanted to be an art journaler for a long time, but every time I started I’d stop. I think it was because subconsciously I never really felt good enough. I loved other people’s art journals – in books, with loads of paint, or collages. But I’ve never really been able to do that (I…
I wrote a letter a few weeks ago, to myself in the future. It’s not something I do out of habit, but one of my friends – a kindred soul – inspired me to try a few weeks ago. What I thought was going to be something I saved and read to myself 10 years…
I’m a photo session at walmart, a large check, and a trip to the library away from getting my passport. A bunch of new clothes and my converse shoes(!!) should arrive in the next two weeks, and I should also be able to finish that off in a few weeks and be all ready for…
Do you feel any different now? I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel a little different. Because for the first time in a while, I do. It’s a weird sense of accomplishment, being 21. Maybe it’s because I’m giving myself permission to step completely out of my box and just live as myself, as…
I struggle (and I always have) with feeling insignificant. With my self-worth and self-value. Anything that has to do with thinking I’m a remotely okay person who has a value slightly above that of a cockroach I’ve battled with. Extensively. I blame myself for everything and anything. If it’s raining and I didn’t bring an…
I realized that I haven’t put up any pictures this week. I took some nice shots of one of our “sets” while we were filming last weekend, and I also painted another piece for my room. So I figured instead of waiting and writing a post on each, and forgetting again, that I’d just put…
A few months back I actually tried to figure out what my personality type was. It’s been helpful in understanding why I do what I do when I’m not really sure myself. I feel weird in the sense that I can kind of compartmentalize myself and look at myself from the “outside” for a while…