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Expecto Patronum
I was talking to my therapist last night about the election and activism and something she poked at really struck me. It is important for activism to come from a place that isn’t fear. Fear and panic spreads like wildfire and runs everyone down. The longevity of the fight depends on us being able to…
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Existing Is Resistance
So, we elected a facist. I, like every other marginalized in-any-remote-way person have spent the last week utterly terrified. It’s an anxiety attack that won’t go away. I’m suddenly very aware of the intersection of my transness, queerness, afabness, and olive skin. I am public about all of those, I’m public about being queer and…
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Things I learned in therapy
My therapist guesses that starting T will help with my hormone induced dysphoria too (just need insurance again). We opened up the jar of trauma that is my relationship with my body when I’m bleeding and realized I’ve never healed from that. Surprising no one, I know. But I realized that the terror that I…
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Fedora on an Asus C201P Chromebook
So as soon as I came up with a plan for a game this month I got distracted trying to install Fedora on the chromebook I have. It took me 4 days to come to the conclusion that I wasn’t failing, it’s just that no documentation on how to install Fedora/other linux systems exist for…
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Github Game Jam
Long story short I quit my dayjob. So I’m looking for work and freelancing again, but also participating in the Github Game Jam. It’s like NaNoWriMo but for game devs, and with a loose topic. This year it’s Hacking/modding/augmenting. So I’m going to do a game based off the little women retelling I want to…
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feels
I cringe when I open my email I’m dreading tomorrow I spent today putting out fires that all happened at once – insurance expired, I needed to re-order court documents, and set up a consult with a lawyer for the roommate situation. I looked at affordable housing orgs and realized I’m tech support for at…
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burnt out on week 4
“It is important for me to take care of my mental, emotional and physical health at work” This was the takeaway from therapy last week. I don’t know that I’ve done particularly well with it so far. I learned one of my coworkers supports Trump and I would be lying if I said that didn’t…
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Depression and Therapy and Burning Man (maybe)
It’s been a long month of more new scary things. Started a job being a glorified receptionist with the bonus skill set of being able to translate people’s computer problems into useful information for the IT people (and no, I don’t get paid more for that skill). Had housing fall through on me twice, the…
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Rising From The Ashes
My life lately has been incredibly roller-coaster like, not necessarily in the fun way, but always in the make-you-stronger-or-die way. I guess that’s also not so much lately as a recurring theme, but that’s besides the point. While I was waiting for divorce paperwork to go through (still am. SOON), going through an additional breakup,…
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I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Said Hello to Courtship, Met a Boy, and Got Married
My parents said they wanted to talk to me one day. I was like 8 or 10 or something innocuous and the thought of boys and kissing was still gross (ew, spit). They said that they decided I wouldn’t be allowed to date, that I would court instead. I said okay, having no idea what…