My body is changing. I’ve talked about it before. It’s confusing, disorienting…scary. I can’t hide my boobs anymore, because they’ve grown too much. I have massive cleavage in a sports bra. My hips and thighs are bigger, rounder, more curvy. My body is growing into more of a “woman” shape than I would like it…
Second pap smear ever today. New doctor is really nice and good at listening, was ready to stop at any time and actually knew what she was doing and had the tiny speculum. No crying or death levels of pain, and we got a good sample, so yay. No one judged me for my weight/gain,…
Having tried is still worth something. Don’t let the lack of immediate success get you down. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. Having done, having tried, having made…is valuable in itself. Don’t judge it harshly, you’re still growing and progress only comes with time and effort. You are a magical creature of wonder and…
Sometimes it feels like the universe just really wants me to not get in to any of the communities that would help me grow faster and it’s really frustrating. I instantly hear the words of my parents when they ripped away my only social outlet and community as a teenager (competitive speech and debate) “you’re…
I didn’t do any WordPress videos on Tuesday, because a work project came up which meant I got to play with MySQL databases and mess around on the server side, so learning was still a thing. Had this huge problem that was created by my browser deciding to insert my email address in the whitelist…
Do the thing that brings you joy. Don’t let anyone tell you not to. You are allowed to do what makes you happy.
When you have a lot of silent thoughts but not the words to say them. So you decide to just start somewhere in hopes of matching words to the feeling on the tip of your tongue. Having my week split into days to focus on things worked pretty well. It works for me because…
I’ve already done a little bit with Ruby. But I figured it’d be a good idea to start at the beginning. So I switched program trees and started Ruby Basics. I can’t even begin to tell you how much I like Ruby better than PHP, but anyway. I made some strings and learned about whitespace…
Today I learned how to make custom page templates in WordPress and how to get navigation to work. I also started on the Custom Post Types section and took some notes for the comic theme I have in my future. One assuring thing is that as I look at the old notes that I have…
So the last three weeks have been getting ready for my spouse to leave and then dealing with my spouse being gone, and that was very hard. I don’t like sleeping alone. Anyway. picked up spouse from the airport yesterday and suddenly ALL my energy and focus came rushing back. I realized that I am…