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I'm doing things!

finally.
It’s happy and scary. I’m going to a game on Thursday, followed by the midnight premier of Avengers, and then going to see The Nerdist Podcast Live in Boston on Friday.
I think this means I can cross off “do something I’m afraid to do” from my list – Meltdowns whilst buying tickets and making up excuses and all. But I wanted to go, and I was the only thing in the way, so….I just did it, and then panicked again.
I need to get out more, apparently.
But I am, so yay!
Giving myself +50xp.

Performing

Lately I’ve had this urge – a re-awakening of a realization. I miss performing and I miss the stage. I miss the feeling of nervousness that disappeared as soon as I walked up to the microphone.
I’m not particularly good, talented, or experienced but I want to perform again. I’ve been so inspired lately, like I’ve just remembered another something that makes me feel alive but forgot over time. I guess that makes the timing of our new short pretty perfect.
 

Think About It (inspiring Wednesday)

 
The No. 1 reason why people quit is because they look at how far they've got to go, not how far they've comeI found this on pinterest┬átoday and it hit me. A lot of the time I feel so young (I am young :P) and lost and like none of the stuff I’m doing really means much, because there’s so much out there I don’t know, and I’m making so many mistakes that I don’t even know about because I’m so inexperienced. But then I saw this. Sometimes I do want to quit, and just hole up and live under the blankets – I want to give up my heart and stop pouring it into paint and canvas and words because I look back on them and blush. I don’t really know what “success” is for me or how close I am to “achieving” it (if that’s even something you can achieve), but I still paint and draw and write because I *like* it, I *want* it, and even though I have so much to learn that sometimes I don’t even want to think about it – I know it brings me closer to myself, and discovering the girl inside who knows me, and knows who I am and what I’m capable of. Sometimes I get lost because my secondary motivation is to help out and honestly I’m thinking that it might be a bit of hinderance at times and I feel like I need to get back to just creating for the sake of creating, and creating because I love it, I need it, and it becomes me.
I don’t know what I’ll do or be in 5 years, 10 years, or next year. Hopefully I’ll be a better artist, a more loving person, and a better friend. I know there’s so much I don’t know…but I think I need to take the time and look at exactly how far I’ve come, in so many different aspects and parts of myself. I’m becoming me.
How far have you come in your hopes, ambitions, and journey? I bet it’s a lot more than you’d expect when you stop and think about it.
 

So Worth It

I had every intention of having a productive day of studying and writing and getting stuff done today – but instead I watched the rebroadcast of the Harry Potter premier.
After struggling with myself for a while – knowing I only have a few more days to finish the books and that I really need to get started since I missed the last few days due to wordpress breaking, me not feeling well, and holidays – I stopped. I decided to just enjoy the moment and take it all in. For a few hours this afternoon I was part of something big – something that’s been going on for a decade, and even though I watched it hours after it happened on the other side of the pond, it was epic, and I’m so glad that I did. It was so worth it.
There’s something to be said about taking time away from the things that you “need” to do and stopping to just soak in the things that are going on around you. It’s vital in a way – if you just go through life routinely and never really stop and just enjoy something, I’m not sure that’s really living. Pausing inspires creativity, it reinvigorates, it encourages, it makes you feel wonder.
So no, I didn’t read my books, I didn’t clean, I didn’t do anything that I initially wanted to get to today, but I had a better day than I would have if I did. I was exploring, I was filled with awe and wonder, I was experiencing, and today, doing that, everything I read in The Everyday Work of Art just clicked.
It’s about experiencing.