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I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Said Hello to Courtship, Met a Boy, and Got Married

My parents said they wanted to talk to me one day. I was like 8 or 10 or something innocuous and the thought of boys and kissing was still gross (ew, spit). They said that they decided I wouldn’t be allowed to date, that I would court instead. I said okay, having no idea what… Continue reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Said Hello to Courtship, Met a Boy, and Got Married

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Preparing A Visionary Daughter to Do Hard Things (Written in 2010)

When I was 19 I had the opportunity to write out…basically my life story and post it to a website with a lot of readers. It helped me start processing my life and was the catalyst for rethinking all the things I was taught and starting to see my abuse for what it was. I’ve… Continue reading Preparing A Visionary Daughter to Do Hard Things (Written in 2010)

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Book Review: Devoted by Jennifer Mathieu

I have to admit, I was really hesitant to start reading Devoted by Jennifer Mathieu – not because I doubted it’s good-ness (she worked with my friend Hännah on it, so I knew it would be good) but because I wasn’t sure I was ready to face the story I know so well, again. Devoted… Continue reading Book Review: Devoted by Jennifer Mathieu

Christianity · Depression and Mental Health · Healing and Awareness · Spiritual Abuse

On Death (and life)

Cynthia touched on it in the first part of her post “Freeing Self-Deceived Fundamentalists“. My family has glorified death for a really long time. I remember Columbine, like she was talking about – being something almost revered – not remotely tragic. When things were shitty(-er than normal) or if I was making a life choice… Continue reading On Death (and life)

Christianity · Depression and Mental Health · Healing and Awareness

Reason

I’ve been triggering myself a little lately, getting introspective about life and the meaning. Nothing weird I guess, but in my dreams I found myself missing things I don’t actually miss, missing rituals and set answers – things I consciously don’t actually value. I’m not particularly sentimental, and I don’t really care about tradition for… Continue reading Reason

Christianity · Gender · Gender Roles and Sexism · Healing and Awareness · Spiritual Abuse

Being a Girl is Just Better

I found our last two bibles in the closet the other day, one of which is KJV (of course). I spent this evening trying to do art with/deface it, and I got up to leviticus before getting bored/having it in my face started getting to me. It’s weird how triggering objects can be – bibles,… Continue reading Being a Girl is Just Better

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Book Review: Homeschool Sex Machine

The author of Homeschool Sex Machine, Matthew Pierce, writes from his perspective growing up in a religious homeschool environment where purity culture reigned supreme and being pubescent meant you were trouble. I read it earlier last week, and was just overcome with feels. It’s a short read – and captures that cringe-y kind of hilarity… Continue reading Book Review: Homeschool Sex Machine

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I don’t know what to call this

I was going through the files on my laptop looking for something specific and I ran across a picture that I saved from 2007. I won’t post it here, because it makes my stomach turn, but content note: graphic descriptions of infections and medical neglect. My parents stopped taking us to doctors before I was… Continue reading I don’t know what to call this

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Child Marriage: I dodged the bullet

I don’t know that I’ve written much about the process of the relationship Alex and I had before we got married. I started this blog after the fact and before I had even begun to process the hellmouth that was my childhood. With three creepy-as-fuck-patriarchs coming out in favor of child marriage – something they’d… Continue reading Child Marriage: I dodged the bullet