Kieryn Darkwater

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This week in pictures and life

I know I’ve been slacking off a bit lately with Thanksgiving and such, so I thought I’d post an update with pictures!

I decorated for Christmas, turned the office into my work space, and made a hat and scarf set for etsy! It’s actually for real people, and fits an adult, but I thought the bear was cute. O:)
This is the first time I’ve decorated my own home for christmas and it’s actually kinda fun. My mom and grandma shipped up my blue and white ornaments and angels and snowmen for me, so that’s been great. Next week I’ll see my family for the first time since the end of February, and I’ll get to meet my newest sibling, so that will be exciting. Tonight, my town is having a christmas parade and a whole holiday fest this weekend complete with free hot chocolate (!!!).
I like being in an area that has alot of special events going on – the arts community is very active and the merchants work together and host things like the “sparkle parade” tonight. It’s very special. In the midst of all of that, the thing that I enjoy most about this year’s holidays, is being with my husband for the first time on Christmas Day – and Thanksgiving. In all the time we’ve known each other, we’ve never been together on the biggest holidays till this year…and even with all the stress and business that comes with Christmas and college and all that they entail, I’m very blessed and thankful that we’re together(for the first time!!!) and always will be.

Etcetera

I hope everyone had as great of a thanksgiving as I did. We went up to my in-laws and I brought Zucchini bread and chocolate cream pie for dessert. We chatted with friends and drank sparkling cider and went around the table and shared what we were thankful for.
Looking back, I really have alot to be thankful for – it’s been a good {crazy} year for me and I’m very blessed.
Thanksgiving is always followed by what is now known as Black Friday and I enjoyed the company of my sister-in-law as we ventured out at 5am (yes, I’m serious) to wal*mart for her first Black Friday experience. On Saturday my husband and I somehow had the energy to go to ikea. 5 hours round trip and $13 in tolls later it was well worth it – they have the coolest cups and kitchen stuff.
Sunday we mostly just relaxed – bringing us to today, Cyber Monday. I wasn’t sure if I was going to do anything special on etsy today, but I decided in the end to offer half price on my scarf collection (originally $10-$15), so make sure you check it out!
So that’s my weekend, how was yours?

The Box :: Thoughts


The Box…is actually a movie about a button, and quite frankly, it pushed mine. Though, it did so much more than that – it was deeply moving, and while unappreciated by myself, I left the theater unable to stop thinking about it and how it affected me. The subtleties and metaphors were not only well used, but very effective.
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This story, as maddening and creepy as it is, embodies a fantastic message that you don’t see very often. Not only does it bring us face to face with our own human issues – mortality, greed, conscience – but it helps us see that sometimes the choice to take a life is so simple when we don’t think of the consequences it could have. Not only do we (figuratively) have blood on our hands, some one else has the power to do the same thing to us (push our buttons). Whereas, if we actually thought of others and worked through our own problems – be it money, disabilities, or just having a really bad life – the consequences of that are so much better than trying to get out of everything the easy way.
It also brought up issues in family life – we see this couple who loves their child, but doesn’t seem to really connect or care for him (though, this is only based on what we can see). In the end the choice is to let him live with a disability, or sacrifice someone you love for your child. This is the part that really turned me off, but at the same time, only furthered the message of the movie. The mother was sacrificed because she loved her son and didn’t want him to live with a disability (but he could live without her better????? seriously.) at the same time, someone else, somewhere, pushed the button. Taking her life, and condemning their own just to escape a fixable problem they didn’t want to deal with.
While the movie really did annoy me – mostly because it actually was somehow able to rip emotion out of me – it was incredibly well done and had a fantastic message. The creators really did something right because it stuck with me a week later.

Flowers

I re-learned how to crochet a granny-square flower a few days ago, and made a video for my mom and thought I’d share it. I had issues editing/exporting/finding it so, the embed is just the raw footage…


You can also click the link and go to my vimeo channel, I made a one minute ending there too (called Finish) – showing the completed project.

Psyched

Just a note to say I’ve officially been accepted into Regent University and I start taking classes in January. I’m very excited and can’t wait to start – I’ve always liked school and I think I’ll really enjoy the classes, I just need to get used to the online system (that likes internet explorer and wasn’t made for macs).
If anyone has any tips on distance courses, feel free to share. 🙂

 

*psyched*

unafraid

choosetell_fairytalesOften times I find myself feeling like a little kid overwhelmed in a great big world – I don’t think my height helps. I realized lately that more often than not I’ve been living in fear. It’s paralyzing, it’s cowardly, and it’s no fun to live in. I’ve had it with living in fear of what people will think of my thoughts, opinions, and decisions.
Oddly enough, I’ve been living the way I absolutely hate, caged up and ineffective because I’m too scared to be seen as who I really am, to be unaccepted. This isn’t anything new either, I’ve had to cross this bridge time and time again for different reasons and different decisions – yet this time, it’s all me. I’ve been to scared to simply stand up for myself and do anything really – I put on this front that really isn’t me…it’s just the scared appeasing version of myself. I’m a people pleaser, but there are people I just can’t please and it’s time for me to get over it and move on. Again.
I’m very blessed that I have a husband who is there to listen, love, accept, understand and help me in this process…actually, he’s the one who made me realize that I could change it. I love him for that – he’s always been that way, he takes my problems and shows me that I can actually fix them.  As far as I’m concerned – as long as I can please God and my husband, I’m good – and I know that I can do that.
(I love you Alex!)

Feminity

Every year I wear the same costume – a colonial dress my grandma and I made from a Felicity pattern about 4 years ago. I love the squared neckline and the lace accents and the blue flowered material, I almost feel like I’ve stepped back in time (except not really, because the people in Star Trek costumes bring me back to reality) I stand taller and feel more graceful and feminine.
I realized the other day, that it’s not the dress that sends my posture into a more correct position, nor does it make me more graceful, I simply feel that way and carry myself likewise. So, I’ve decided to experiment – I’m going to try and carry myself with more grace and poise (and hopefully work on my posture) this month and see how it goes. Initially I thought about wearing more skirts, since they seem to help, but in this climate, I would freeze before being graceful. In lieu of that, I’m doing more stretches (just basic ones, most of them I learned from ballet) and trying to sit up straighter when I’m crocheting or working on my laptop.
I gave up training myself to become more poised and graceful a few years ago, and I regret it. At the end of this month, I’d like to stand tall at 4’11 and I’d like to be able to walk and carry myself in a way that exudes both femininity and confidence (without having to dress like a colonial).
Who knows, maybe I’ll take up dancing again.

Election Day

Tomorrow, for the first time, I’ll actually get to vote. I can honestly say I’ve been waiting for this moment for years and I’m more than a little bit psyched about it. I spent most of high school campaigning and encouraging everyone around me to go out on election day, and finally I can join them. I will probably wear my “I voted” sticker with much pride tomorrow…and I’ll try not go parading around town with it. Oddly enough, I think election day ties with my birthday in terms of anticipation. Tomorrow I vote, tomorrow I have a voice…and a check box, and tomorrow, I plan to use it.

 

*squeal*

 

Then, I get to watch the returns. 😀 😀 😀 😀

 

 

*/geek/*