Time

I feel guilty because right now I’m not trading my time for money. Which on bad days makes me feel like I’m just a leech, and on really good days makes me feel incredibly free and useful.

I’m using my time to be productive, learn, and establish myself. Which are all good things, and smart things and lucky things to have time and the (saved) income for…I’m setting up my fake empire and doing all these things at 21 is pretty good. Still, watching people who have less time than I do because of working makes me feel guilty for having so much of it and having so little to show for it. At least, it feels that way.

So, I focus and I do things, and I do a lot of things. I don’t really know what I’m doing, but I’m learning, and setting myself up, and that’s a good use of time. I think.

The most valuable thing is time
(artist unknown?)

2 comments

  1. well said!! I can relate with this so much. I feel really guilty for the time I have like almost a huge responsibility to myself & to others. but I I feel I waste it more than not. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I’m glad ur doing good things to build your fake empire & to make yourself better!!

    1. Yeah, the responsibility thing, totally. <3
      I guess it's just because it's so different from everyone else - especially with not having kids, it's not like there's something to blame or justify the guilt, and I would never want to even be in that position anyway. But it feels like it's either one or the other and the middle ground of being home and working on things that aren't paying yet, while other people make money just feels weird.

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