What I really really really want.

I don’t know.

Some of my current favorite quotes remind me of those questions, the questions I don’t have answers to.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. -Steve Jobs

What do you do when you look at yourself and all you see is a vast empty space, full of possibilities but no clear tug? Just options, so many options, all equally thrilling…

What would you attempt if you knew you could not fail? -Robert Schuller

I painted this months ago and put it on my wall, to remind myself to ask, and as a conversation piece eventually, when I know my answer and am brave enough to ask it of others.

I think about it a lot, but the answer remains the same: I don’t know. So many things, and so few, all at once.

The blank line is both terrifying and exhilarating. There’s excitement in the unknown and the knowledge that I could put anything in that line, and I want it to be something that resonates so deeply within me, I want it to be the right thing.

What if I choose the wrong thing? Is that even possible? Is the daunting nature of the question in the answer, or is it the question itself?

If I could do anything, if I really followed my heart’s desire, and did the thing(s) that made me feel so alive, what would that be? What would my life look like from here on out?

I haven’t the slightest idea. Part of me wonders if the reason I haven’t an answer is because I’m already there. What if I’m already doing those things?

But if so, why can’t I name them?

I think more introspection is required; the lines stay blank and full of possibilities until then.

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2 thoughts on “What I really really really want.

  1. Is Robert Schuller really who said that? I have a magnet with that on it but it says anonymous. I’d love to know where it came from.