Monthly Archives: January 2012

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me + food = meh

I realized earlier today, that I think the reason I enjoy food significantly less than everyone else is because I have no real emotional connection to it. I eat food because I have to as my body dislikes starvation. While I appreciate good food, and I have a handful of foods that I will be very happy if you serve me (dark chocolate, pizza, and mac & cheese) I don’t enjoy it like everyone else I know seems to. I wonder if it’s because food and I are less emotionally connected and if that’s part of the reason I only eat when I’m hungry and (generally) don’t eat more than I need to. I don’t eat for non-hunger reasons (like boredom or sadness or happiness) with the exception of being held captive by hormones that send me into a depressed and munchie ravage.
So today, I did something that I really don’t enjoy.
recipe quest
Finding recipes. I dread it and try to avoid it as much as possible usually, but something else hit me today.
I’m doing this because I think I’m worth it, and no one else can do this for me.
I want to eat healthier and cook healthier not because I’m a good wife, or I enjoy the process of making a good meal for my husband, because honestly, I don’t. I hate loathe the process and I have no satisfaction in cooking at all (thankfully my good-wifey-ness isn’t subject to my kitchen performances); but I finally think that I’m worth the effort, as much as I might hate the process.
So jumping into the annoying finding-recipes-and-making-lists quest I was able to write down some interesting bits of information I found from the encyclopedia, and hit with a little bit of genius, I came up with something to potentially solve the ever frustrating problem of not knowing what to do with leftover produce (you know, before it turns into goo).
Produce & Uses Chart
I’m coming to the scary realization that taking this healthy eating thing on for myself means I need to actually put effort into finding food and using it and maybe even doing more cooking (sad). So if I can streamline some of that process to limit the amount of “I don’t know what to do with it” coma’s that I inevitably fall into, that might help me feel better about getting foods that expire in a week.
In the meantime, I’ll keep reminding myself that me and my health are worth the uh, torture of potential meal planning…and I’ll keep switching between Spongebob and MSNBC while I’m at it, because that seems to help.

Workouts on the Second Floor

I’ve said this before – I live in a second floor apartment and someone lives under me. We don’t have carpet, so there’s nothing to soak up the sound. We try to be as quiet and considerate as possible which makes exercises like jumping or jogging in place kind of hard to do. I even tip toed through some of the kinect fitness stuff because I didn’t want to land too hard.
Amazingly, when looking for exercises it’s hard to find ones that are really good for people who have to equipment (not even a yoga mat) and live above someone in an apartment complex. The easy go-to’s are kind of off limits to overly considerate apartment dwellers.
But I found one website on pinterest, that lets you select a region you’d like to work out and lists a variety of exercises to choose from.

It’s Divine.ca and at night, before I go to bed I’ve been doing the Inner Thigh Sculptor and the Leg Raise. They all take place on the floor and use your bodyweight, so it works well and I can feel my muscles working. The other exercise I’ve been experimenting with I also found on pinterest from Tracy Anderson called the Thigh Trimmer.
I usually just sit on floor and watch whatever’s on while I do them. The hardest part is that my cat thinks it’s time to rub against me while I’m stretching. I love doing these at night because my muscles feel much more relaxed and comfortable before bed.
Later today, or this week I’ll go through the exercises from the library book and see about incorporating some of them too.

Team Treehouse

I found this really great video tutorial on Web Design and Development by Team Treehouse. I’ve been watching them and all of the things I forgot about web design I’m now remembering. The beautiful thing about their videos though, is that 1) they start off with the current versions of html and css (HTML 5 and CSS 3) and 2) they INDENT!
Nothing is more annoying than un-indented and hard to read code. Maybe it’s because my husband writes lovely code and he’s the one who taught me, but when I view the source of pages and it’s all over the place and there aren’t any indents or easy ways to find what belongs where it’s really irritating. Admittedly, I don’t do this as much as I used to, but still.
Anyway, I watched the intro and the text series so far, and HTML 4/5 is much more simple than what I was writing a few years ago (xhtml). The videos are *really* basic too. Sometimes annoyingly so, because I already have a grasp on the language, but if someone is just starting out, they would be absolutely perfect (and hey, I love them) because they’re so easy to follow. Interestingly, they give a bit of background on the history of it too, which I found fascinating.
I downloaded MAMP and Alex did the thingy to connect it to my sites folder so I can practice locally, which is handy, but unfortunately, because it’s local, I can’t actually share linkage to my clever bits so a screenshot will have to suffice (it’s only HTML, nothing fancy at all).
HTML Page

Purple Space

I painted my white space purple. The painting looks “textured”, with multiple hues of reds and purple with shots of cerulean and in the corner, in white, I wrote “love” and called it good. I might add some more plum elements just to pull in the curtains more overtly, but at the moment, even with less plum, it ties things in rather nicely.
Room (redesigned) with painted canvas I haven’t done anything to the bedroom since, but I did give my bookshelf and The Flux some attention. I took down my animal/fairy display from the bookshelf so I could put more books on it.
Book Shelf, now with more books!
So, then I moved my awesome animal and fairy display into The Flux. I put the three cardboard boxes that I was keeping (after I got rid of a ton of others earlier) to use and covered them with some leftover cloak material and made myself a little corner.
A Kiery Corner
I also moved the desk off the green screen so we can use it again, and moved my sewing machine to floor so we can actually use the desk (currently, prop-making). Eventually, we’ll need to get another desk…

I don't like diets

I find them restricting and complicated. I need something simple, just like, what do I need to eat to be healthy and how much? A drag and drop system would be lovely, and maybe I’ll make one someday. I went to the library the other day and brought home 4 books, remarkably, after flipping through most of them before coming home, the most helpful (so far) has been Food Rules.Food Rules
It’s kind of…perfect, and freeing. I was almost lamenting the other day about how if I’m really serious about this (and I am), it seems so complicated that it’s probably going to turn my life on it’s head and I’m going to need to become a food/nutrition guru just to be healthy. Unfortunately, as nice as that is…it’s not really my personality and the idea of putting all of my energy into some kind of plan just seemed…daunting and a bit suffocating.

Library Books

Especially with the books I brought home. Admittedly, I brought them all home for different reasons. Food Rules seemed like it’d be a great guide (and it is!), the Mayo Clinic book has colorful charts, and The Perfect Body Diet I ironically didn’t get for it’s diet, but because it lists and describes some interesting exercises that I think I can do in my second floor apartment. Ideally, I’ll get a $10 yoga mat, because I don’t like slipping on my hard floors. The um, encyclopedia I got because it’s an encyclopedia and seemed handy, though it’s remarkably hard to hold open.

Maybe I’ll garner up the nerve to watch Food Inc. on netflix. Food Rules was great in that it explained everything clearly and took off a lot of the pressure I was feeling to focus on individual elements in food, rather than how healthy and processed it is as a whole. So while they’re important I feel less need to think “okay, I’ve eaten 8 grams of protein and now I need to eat 12 grams of  vitamin __” because honestly, that was just stressing me out.

As much as I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy more. I’m not sick, but I’m definitely not exactly healthy either. I think that if I can eat well (which sadly means cooking, but I’ll be 21 in February so maybe if I drink a glass of wine while torturing myself by cooking, it’ll be more tolerable…and also healthy. Though I guess it’s better to have with food…but I’ll experiment) then my weight (and possibly hormones) will start to balance out as well.

This weeks’ diet of frozen dinners and ramen noodles has definitely angered my system enough for me to be open to change (I don’t think there was any chicken in my nuggets :S). The biggest and most helpful thing I’ve gleaned from Food Rules is basically that the biggest thing is how processed everything is. If you can stay away from as much processed stuff as possible and eat small/proper amounts (and lots of plants) of food in moderation, then you’re good. Which for me means I’m not restricted with what I make or what I eat, as long as it’s in moderation (which I kinda have down, because I get sick if I don’t :P) and as un-processed as possible.

While I don’t feel the need (or have a big enough wallet) to go to whole foods every week (as ideal as that would be) I’m okay (now) with spending more, for better quality food and shorter shelf life. Food Rules in combination with this article kinda helped with that. I tend to be a bit uptight when it comes to buying food…since I don’t particularly enjoy it anyway.

So that’s a step.

Footage

Saturday we did some wrap up of basic pre-production stuff, and then went outside and started filming. We didn’t stay out too long, because we were freezing, but we managed to finish a scene in 30-40 takes, and get some fun behind-the-scenes footage of costumes/hair and make up, and I managed to grab a couple screenshots of the footage of the cast in character.

The Cast, Shooting

Basically, we just walked in the cold.

Shooting

And somehow managed to look really good and remarkably un-frostbitten in the process.

The script is a work in progress – we only have a few scenes done, but since we can only film on the weekends, we can write and finish whatever props that we need to work on during the week. Thankfully, the costumes are done (we were worried about mine until we raided the closet and found something perfect) so really all that’s left are actual props that won’t come in until later.

Performing Inspiration

I alluded to this in another post, but this year I’m remembering how very very much I love to be on stage and perform. Though I’m not trained and I’m not overly talented, seeing a couple really good performances over the last couple weeks and starting pre-production (and actually filming this weekend) on a short film has kind of awakened that in me. Performing – being on stage – talking, dancing, attempting to act makes me feel exhilarated and alive. I forgot how much I absolutely loved that – everything from the preparation stages to the actual culmination of the details. Not too unlike art, honestly.
I like things that require different pieces to come together into a whole.
Anyway, I thought that it would be handy, to share some of the clips that for all intents and purposes awakened the sleeping part of myself that just loves to be up there. Whenever I go to a performance of anything, honestly, in real life, I feel the same way and I wish and wonder what it’s like to have been on that stage, to have spent months or years preparing for that moment, to take people into a world for just a few hours…
Coldplay’s performance on New Years Eve (this is not that clip, I spent hours on youtube trying to find it but couldn’t) started that spark,

which Daniel Radcliffe continued to ignite with his very talented and hilarious performance on SNL last week (this clip was the last sketch of the evening, and made the political geek inside laugh a lot, but the entire episode is worth watching).

So on the verge of awakening, we finally came up with a good idea for a short film. Maybe the immersion into the world of filmmaking over the last year and a half has played a role in that as well. Whatever happened to get to this part of me again, I’m glad, and I’m excited that it’s all just kind of perfectly timed, and I’m really psyched about this next year for us.

Fitness and Nutrition 101

I realize setting this “goal” is ironic after going shopping for tv dinners and ramen noodle cups, but life happens.
Anyway, This post is going to be relatively short. I’ve been taking vitamins again, now that I remember. I’m really good with taking my iron (flintstones ftw) it’s the other stuff that I have a problem with. I hate normal milk, so I don’t get as much calcium as I should – but we started getting chocolate milk (because I drink that) so that is my round-about way of getting it.

Vitamins

Everyday when I wake up, I take two Vitamin C’s and a Flintstone (it has iron) multivitamin. I actually look forward to those because they taste good. Someone finally had the idea to make a gummy vitamin C, so the trick is really only eating two. 😛 After I eat lunch, I take two Vitex pills for hormonal balance. I haven’t noticed any changes with that, but it’s significantly less like candy.
I still walk about a mile every day –  give or take lately because the sidewalks are precarious. I should change my pace a little to increase my heart rate and I’ll start using RunKeeper again to keep track. I even found a widget for it and put it up on my sidebar. Just because the last activity was October doesn’t mean I haven’t done anything.
Lastly, I’ve decided to up my water intake and drink more green tea. I have a water bottle that filters the water as you drink it. I don’t know how many ounces it holds, but it’s a pretty decent size. So if I can just remember to keep it with me and refill it enough throughout the day that will be an improvement. Green Tea, I’ve heard is good for metabolism/burning fat, and it’s winter so it’s a win/win. I had two cups yesterday while I was sewing and I just finished one a couple minutes ago. I think I’m going to attempt to have two cups of green tea a day, but we’re running low so I’m not sure how long that’s going to work.
Eventually I’d like to try one of those anti-bloating drink recipes on pinterest, we’ll have to see.